April 7th, 2008

*Takes a deep breath* It seems that more drama has flowed my way. On April 4th, my day was going well, I got an Asian Studies Minor and was feeling good, then I returned to my dorm to see a IM of distress from my mom saying that my dad threatened her life and she'd tell me everything in full detail later. I found out through my boyfriend everything that happened, and apparantly my dad physically assaulted my mom. It started out as a argument over my dad using the phone all day long, causing my mom to miss important calls from doctors ect. His friend from Staten Island called and she picked up and told him that he shouldn't be talking with my dad all day, that she was missing important calls, and rightfully so she was angry at both of them since they talk all night long and keep her awake, when she has cancer and she needs her rest. Turns out my dad was on the other line and heard her telling his friend off and then he started to scream at her, followed by coming downstairs to menace her. She tried to call the police on him and managed to make it intot he kitchen, where he proceeded to grab her in a chokehold from behind and pull her head back, injuring her neck. In a panic my mom put her hands around his throat in self-defense, but was too weak to do any harm. He threatened that if she got the police involved he would "see too it that the cancer was not going to cause her death" but that he would kill her. Somehow the fight ended, my mom managed to get out of the house to get her radiation treatment, and afterwards took refuge at my brother's house. I tried to go to my college's counseling center for immediate help and the woman there seemed rather uncaring and set an appointment for me that was a good 4 hours off, and I didn't have 4 hours to spare. So I did the next best thing I could think of and I went to the HEOP office and there I finally got help. They were all shocked to hear that my dad could be so wretched as to attack a woman with cancer in her brain who might not have long to live. One of their memebers took me to see her and my mom cried, the pain fresh in her mind. She told us everything and she was afraid to go home because he was still there. Soon he came over to my brother's and outside my brother confronted him, and of course my dad made himself sound like a poor victim, and that he'd get my mom arrested for trying to choke him. Soon he made arrangements to go to Statent Island to stay with his friends and then come back up here and take as much time as he wanted to find another place to live. It took all day for my mom to overcome her fear of getting the police involved. She came to my dorm room and stayed with me, and by 10:30PM she finally called the police. They came here and we told them everything and the end result was that my dad had a friend drive all the way up here to get him, so now he's in Staten Island, we have his house key, he's no longer allowed on the property, and if he comes back up there will be a warrant for his arrest. So the past few days my mom has been overcoming this trauma, and my friend Veronica and I took it upon ourselves to pack my dad's things, clean out his filthy tobacco infested bedroom and restore some peace to our home. I am now back at college, behind on my work but glad that my mom is safe and the black cloud has been lifted from our home. I only have 4 weeks to go before I graduate, so I hope and pray that nothing else rocks the boat from here on out. I pray they can get rid of my mom's cancer and buy her more time, and that I can do everything I need to do to get out of college and get on my own two feet. So thank you all for reading this and for your care, sometimes life gives you lemons, so I am going to make lemonade ^^


March 30th, 2008

Konnichiwa minna... I'm just writing this journal entry to let you all know that I received devastating news last night. Some of you already know that my mom was diagnosed with lung cancer last February, and has had breast cancer 8 years prior. We thought and hoped with all our hearts that they cured her, and for her past few scans all was clear. However I just found out she's been in the hospital for the past two days because they discovered she has six cancerous lesions on the frontal lobe of her brain, the biggest being 1.1cm, and tomorrow I will find out if they find cancer elsewhere. My mom essentially told me that now she is officially incurable, the cancer will be chronic, and they will just have to fight the cancer off every time it comes back until the end. I don't know how much time she has left and I am praying she can overcome this. I told her I wanted her to live to see me graduate and now I only have four or five weeks left of college to go. I want out of here so badly and to be with my mom cause time is precious, but I also need to be able to support myself in case the worst happens, so I am in a real bind. I'm letting you all know because I know for some of you have been waiting for your art commissions (Rebecca, Kale, Riccardo, and Geadaan), and I honestly have been in a slump, run down, unmotivated, and now this news has destroyed me. I need to focus right now on getting all of my college work done completely, as much of it as I can possibly do. I already paid off my loan thanks to my Aunt Vi who passed away April 1st of last year....tommorow. God rest her soul, I am so grateful to her. So I am debt free when I get out of school, but without my mom life's going to be hard. We have a bond that goes beyond mother and daughter, we're best friends too, and I will miss her jokes and her silly paintings. I know she's not gone yet and there's still hope but this is the only way I can cope. I just ask for understanding and support since my mom is all I have and I have no other family to turn to aside from my brother and Jenn. Thank you all for listening and I really do appreciate all your support and love for my art. Better days will come.

Sincerely,
Otaku1811

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